it is amazing how people can differ from one another.
my 2 years spent in this amusement park (where i am the ride) i have learnt many useful lessons in life.
1. always follow up.
2. never give "i dont know" and "i disagree" without providing an alternative.
3. if someone sent you an email and it is "on the way" or lost in transmission, click 'send & recieve' to get it instead of sit there and wait.
4. you have no clue about what you are supposed to do. GOOD*. you are not going to screw up because the idiot who tasked you either didnt task it out professionally or found the wrong scapegoat to finish off the crap... or both.
5. even if you screwed up the task giver wouldnt notice.
6. keep ALL your goddamn mails (especially the ones you sent)
7. some people are virtually blind. they do not know and the company doesnt either (otherwise they wouldnt be hired). help them to see by using bold and plus-sized fonts.
8. if you do not know, ask. if you cannot ask, say you do not know.
9. when you cannot blend in, space out.
10. people who thank you and say "hi" are not automatically harmless to you.
11. you will never know that you have already been harmed unless someone standing behind you tells you so.
12. you are beautiful. look at the chicken. yes, god loves you even though you dont believe in him.
13. your boss do not love you. but he/she is capable and you should respect his/her for the things you learn from him/her.
14. not all bosses are capable, just like not every flower is sweet and beautiful... some can stink like a corpse.
15. if you think your boss has nothing to teach you, it is time to move on to a new boss.
16. if you cannot find a new boss, you can always find a new office.
i had a meaningless experience with a boss i cannot work with for what seem like the longest period of time. it got so bad... so bad... it hurts to breathe around it.
it was unintelligent and unaware of its lack of brains.
it has a knack for airing its way out of its mistake and committing others to its redundant promises to the rest of the world.
it enjoys a good challenge and happily create imaginary challenges from other colleagues when there is none.
it can lick and suck really well.
did i mention it is unintelligent? ok, it happens to be inefficient and incapable too.
it is the cause of most unhappiness so far.
and today... it is no longer my boss.
"iris is gonna bare her fangs"
nope* but she would like to tell you to fuck off from now onwards.
sleeping in without a care in the world when your ass is supposed to be in the office chair is wrong. but guess what?
i get rewarded for pulling such stunts. *smirks*
you know life is never fair and today it is unfair to my advantage.
i swear the world stood still when i held it.
ok, my world stood still. but hey, thats a big fucking deal.
my brother is a victim of severe Obessive Complusive Disorder (aka OCD). he hasnt been well to work (or even lead a "normal" life) all these years.
it is one of the best birthday presents i can ever recieve... him taking another step back to being unafriad of me and treating me like a sister, not a stranger.
the present itself is obviously something i personally will pay hard-earned cash for without batting an eyelid... it is a computer mouse that screams everything i desire right down to its packaging. even its brand happens to be one of my favourite... it is not a common brand in singapore.
talk about knowing a person... it is a power that doesnt leave or change, no matter how ill you are.
courtesy of Mr. Roy of Monsoon, Velocity
"呐* 给你早的生日礼物。"
n_n 谢谢你哥哥。我很喜欢你的礼物。<3
found its way into the hearts of my dear son and his beautiful wife.
admist the 300 over attendees to their wedding dinner, surrounded by a setting of black and red... i shed tears not over the gourmet delicacies served, or the very special wedding present i am entitled bring home that was sitting on my table.
nothing can describe the feeling of pride i felt when i saw them walked down the aisle, crowned by the blessings of so many others around me, seemingly ready to take on what awaits them in life together... hand in hand till the very end.
my own flop in love made me ever more sensitive to the difficulties they have faced and resolved in order to hold on till this moment. and seeing them making it this far at such a young age makes me realised that it is not a dream nor a curse... this thing called love.
it just didnt mature in my garden like it did in other peoples. one day it might if i do things right. for now i am lost in this new chapter of their lives, trying to soak up every thing i need to know so that i will be ready for my very own.
the lynn told me she has no qualms about me not going to marry.
you know what charbo? i cannot wait to see the lucky guy who gets to hold your hand eventually... i know he is worth the wait.
"mummy~!"
you do not know how proud i am of you ah long... i really am and i wish you can bring me this feeling of pride and comfort whenever i look at you by continuing to bloom beautifully in your life like the way you did today.
sleep alot these days.
it has been more than a month and i dont have nightmares everytime i close my eyes anymore.
i know this is not because of me having learn to let go gracefully or forget what should be forgotten. i am still bound by hope and memories... the only trick i have mastered is to not think of everything as much now. it is not a clean solution, but this is my baby-step to dealing with a break-up without breaking down.
i know one day i will be able to deal with everything happily without crying buckets and screwing up my life, work, and all other relationships i have.
i will be able to deal with outcomes, happy endings or not, with understanding and forgiveness and hope... not for the past anymore, but for my future.
and speaking of the future the nearest thing to me in my future will have to be the epic japan trip.
getting news of people from office going to japan during the same period as i do simply doesnt help... i know i will see familiar faces at TGS with a considerable amount of bad luck.
there are a couple of things i pray never to occur during my epic travel... like my period (which i know falls on my goddamn birthday), the lost of items (including myself), and one of it HAS to be NOT bumping into any face i recognise from my office.
the office... ... is a venue of interest.
it is a playground for the cream of the retarded crop and an elysium for idiots who speak moronlingo.
everyday is a day out in the zoo for you, and the intelligent are the zoo-keepers.
ie: people who clean up the shit and mess.
i have been tagged by the kiaper. she threaten to get wussie alex to bite me if i dun post 20 random facts about myself on my blog...
so here goes:
1. i do not like to wear bright colors... the only bright colors i will wear will be red, purple, white, and HOT pink. even these i only wear them with black.
2. i enjoy having fun by the seaside almost as much as i enjoy my solitude hours at night.
3. i am not a big fan of food, especially seafood.
4. i only have 1 BCG mark from my baby days.
5. i already had my attack of chicken pox. had it when i was 19. got it from my mom who was 52.
6. i am a nose person... i stare rudely/uncontrollably/blatantly at people with sharp noses and wish for one i can call my own.
7. i used to be able to chew my toenails some 5 years back.
8. but i fail sit-and-reach everytime, anytime.
9. i appreciate music more than you can imagine.
10. i rape like men who are tall, fair, with broad shoulders, slim waists, long legs, six packs, sexy pecs, handsome-evil-looking visage, with some kind of attitude problem to the world but never to me... excellent at sports, good at music, fucken filthy rich, intelligent but never have the opportunity to showcase it because they stay out of shit... urm* yea.
11. my favourite colors are purple and black.
12. i love jazz music a bit more than i love rock music.
13. i am always and ever dirt poor because i cannot forget how to shop.
14. i wish i can dance and sing well. (this is a nice way of telling you i cannot sing or dance to save my life)
15. i have a soft spot for retarded-looking useless toys. (you may try using these to bribe me)
16. i have chronic constipation and sinusitis problem.
17. i am luckier than you.
18. you are happier than me.
19. i know alex will never bite me because he thinks i am a moron and kiaper loves me too much to order a bite on me.
20. i need to drop everything and start far, far away as something else... maybe a mayfly.
"...teach..."
no thanks, i dont learn from retards.
